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okie dokie, dollies, I've decided again to change muh user name. my new one is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) drop_dead_tina
ADD IT!!
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[06 Sep 2005|11:13pm] |
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ugh. I'm so tired. I just got home today from Auburn, AL, being a hurricane refugee for a few days. But now we have power, so that's rad. I was on the road for six hours this morning and spent the rest of the day cleaning and most of the evening worrying about a fight with muh siiisster Cole (which I'm still not sure ifit's over yet. :/).
It feels so nice to be back. Sure, it was awesome visiting my uncle, but there was 9 of us in that crazy house. Hee. Nuts when four of them are 11 and under, and an extra one is a cat that is apparently on feline speed (If there is such a thing. pfft). Who knows, that animal was nuts. Oh and basically being a sideshow for the neighbors because we were up there because of the hurricane. -.- geez. But otherwise, it wasn't bad. I REALLY can't complain. I got to eat and not worry about boiling water constantly and actually sleep through the night. And I'm definitely glad for my cousins too. I was worried about those three munchkins. It's just too hot. But, now they have a generator, but still no water. Hopefully, they'll come stay out here for a little while. They didn't tonight, just washed clothes. I'm super thankful that we finally have power and that we do have water, because now if we know anyone that needs anything, we can help more. Like washing and anything else possible. all that stuff.
My dad is on the coast right now helping clean up. One of the boys that is in the unit he used to be in was killed a few days ago down there. A power line broke, hit his truck, and the impact killed him. I also have a friend that lives in Gulfport that I haven't talked to since the day before Katrina. It really worries me. That and I'm worried about how safe my dad is. Hm.
On a lighter note, I think I'm getting addicted to energy drinks. o.O
And everyone I know that was in all this mess, whether a little or a whole lot, take care and I do hope that all of you are well.
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[26 Aug 2005|11:23pm] |
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I think I'm getting sick. A cold or something. If I don't stop sneezing, I'm going to cut off my nose because it hurts so damn much. Eh, not really. heh. One symptom out of many. ugh. This is not good at all.
I just got back from visiting Cole today. We watched Constantine. Not bad. Cole, if you made me sick...I'ma beat you up. pfft. :P
someone make me feel better. *poof* cold be gone! or something. blah. I think I'm getting a little delirious. o.o
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[25 Aug 2005|07:40am] |
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So, I got the job, dearies. mhmm. :]
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[23 Aug 2005|01:24am] |
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I should be in bed. I should always be in bed at this time. I am so tired tonight. Must...fight. Yeah. Uh huh.
I just finished watching Sin City. Pretty damn spiff, if you ask me. I didn't know it was here until today. My grandfather goes and buys a new movie every weekend. Hello?! Gee, Mandy, you knew it was going to be Sin City this time. ;) I kind of stopped searching for the new movies in the house. Hm. I seem to always forget. But then again, I always forget lots of things.
One of my friends readjusted his goods less than a foot away from my face. That was not cool. I am now emotionally scarred for life. Heh, he didn't even realize he did it. He was on the phone (as usual) and stood up at the table...F word. Yeah, it was just..fucking weird. And I wasn't the only one that was unfortunate enough to somehow be that close. Scary. o.o You would've had to have been there to understand the whole thing. I'm too tired to worry with detail..ew. k. I'm done with that one.
Tyler invited me to go to a concert in Jackson with him and a few other people. Gonna go see Norma Jean..But I won't be. The concert is the first day of Voodoo fest. That is so screwed. Oh well, I'm sure I'll be asked to go see them again some other time. He's seen them 4 times already. :D
Cole, you craaaazy bitch, you better let me steal that new Foo Fighters CD for a while. :D *sniff* I *sniff* heart yooou. hehe.
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Stimulating ideas
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50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
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[19 Aug 2005|07:52pm] |
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I think I swear too much. Is it really that bad? F word. XD I hada friend tell me today that whenever I get mad it was just shocking hearing the things come out of my mouth. Bite me. I'm happy that I'm so brash. If I wasn't, everyone would think then I was too dull. Can't make em all happy. Fuck it.
K, have to go get the dog back out of her pen now. She was put there today while they sprayed for spiders...So she wouldn't get drunk off the smell and try to drink any that got on the porch. -.- hm.
AH! I'm fucking bored. Later, dollies.
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[18 Aug 2005|04:08pm] |
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Hi. :) I'm sitting out here at my friend Kellie's house. deedly dee....hm. Anyway, I had a job interview today. I *think* it went well. I had to take some stupid little test that has to be sent off and approved, so as soon as it comes back in, I'll get the call. On Monday, more than likely.
Ah! I always get myself wound up in new projects. hehe. I'm molding wax into roses for a topiary, and when I came up with this idea, Dawn wants me to make her some for her wedding. But that's cool, I always enjoy new projects. :)
I've gotten pretty addicted to watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force lately. hm.....Got my mom watching it too. XD
I get to stay at Lisa's house this weekend. woo! My mom is housesitting so yay! I won't have to put up with my uncle or grandfather buging me for a tleast three days. That sounds pretty sad huh? Oh well. *^_^*
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[12 Aug 2005|02:01am] |
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Well, been a few days. I went and visited with Cole. Much fun. :) When I got back I had been stressed out about something that happened This past Saturday. Visited with a boy. Got totally played. ugh! I hadn't really known him thatlong but geez, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I'm very emotional, and get upset quite easily. I hadn't gotten completely over the thing until last night. Fuck. I was hurt, I was angry at myself for being stupid and vulnerable, I was angry at him for making me feel like I was going insane, and I wanted to beat the guy to a bloody pulp. Now, fuck it. I learned my lesson and will go into any future situation a little bit wiser from now on. Look, nothing HAPPENED, but it sure sounds like it, the way I react to little things. But it didn't feel little to me. *sniff* [Most] boys suck. pfft. But I had tons help from ranting at Sam *hee* about it all and 'uncle lee' listening to me as well. lol. The guy my mom works with. Long story. XD Not really but whatever.
My aunt came up to the store today and was pretty upset. Her oldest daughter, which is 11, was dumped by her boyfriend for another girl. None of ushad heard the full story yet, not even her mom. We had to wait til cheerleading practice was over. *smack* Anyway, turns out she wasn't sad at all. In fact, she was so mad at the little twirp, she told him that she was SO angry at him that she wanted to slap him in the face. Weeeellll. The boy told her to do it (since apparently all little boys think they're invincible) and she just says, "You know, you really aren't even worth the time and energy. Just a waste of space." Ow. But I am proud of her, if I do say so mahself. That's mah girl. :) I'm glad she didn't smack him. But me..I'm just not that nice. :D But I'm still proud of how she really handled it.Now what, playa?! k this is where i need a really gangsta sign inserted . hehe.
Also, about an hour or two ago, my mom scared the fuck out of me. She was online and I was watching teevee..Well, she bumped her leg on this one vein that kind of sticks out because her skin is very thin..She didn't think anything about it until she looked down and everything was red. I looked and, as awful as it sounds, blood was literally squirting from the vein. I take off to get a towel and rip it up to tie it off to help slow down the blood flow on the way to the hospital. We ended up not going, but it stopped altogether about five minutes after it happened. That was the scariest fucking thing ever. ugh. I've never seen anything like that happen before. But everything's okay now. But still...I'll probably have nightmares tonight. o.O
Nite nite, boys and ghouls! muah!
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| I may not be a super hero, but I'll do the best I fucking can. |
[06 Aug 2005|12:34am] |
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Got back today from visiting with Cole. Quick visit this time, but I'll probably go back on Monday or something.
I got my new CD in a couple days ago. It's not exactly new, but new to me. :) I got Slipknot's Vol. 3: The Subliminal Verses. I just absolutely love it. I made a copy of it for the guy my mom works with (since he's nice and let me rape his entire CD collection a couple weeks ago. hehe) and I know he said he wasn't all that crazy about their other stuff, but I dunno. This one is pretty damn good, in my opinion. But whatever, if he doesn't like it, oh well, he can toss it or something. :D
I've started drawing a new..thingy...series, something. (And I really need to scan all this stuff I have) It's a play on how people hold on to certain feelings/experiences for too long, sometimes without really noticing it constantly, bearing the weight of something that really needs to be let go. I'm using a little bondage for visual purposes, to really make it stand out. Examples are a broken heart, the mourning of a loved one, things like that. I'm in that list. The first one. I realized it a little while into it, that I was portraying me. Hm. Happens to all of us though. All of the 'creatures' (I guess you could say) will have wings. Sure, 90% of my stuff has wings, but this has a different meaning. The wings represent the freedom we have to carry on past bad times, and how we sometimes can escape from it. But this first one has empty eye sockets, to portray that she can't see in herself exactly what her broken heart has caused, and her denying that she hasn't let go of something from the past that can't be changed. Yeah, that's about me. But doing this is serious therapy. I'm learning how to let go of my first love, because as naive as I can be, I'm realizing that it's in the past and what's done is done. And I'm okay with that. Actually, more than okay. I'm hoping everyone else that sees these will find the ones that remind them of their own issues, and how it's okay to let go. I hope by viewing them it can help someone else like it's doing for me. Visual art may not change the entire world, but if it changes someone's perspective, makes them feel something real, then that's definitely the best thing to me.
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[04 Aug 2005|02:42am] |
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I survived babysitting. Woo yayness. It was fun. Always is, I love my baby cousins. Went and sat up at the store tonight. Hee. Dawn asked me to draw some phone covers for her. She has one of those Nokias where you can slip in a paper with your own design on it. I'd tell you the model but I'm stupid and can't remember. :P She hung out up there most of the day too. Mom worked with one of the guys tonight. Lemme tell ya, when you have way too much free time, anything's good for a laugh. He had to go take some boxes/garbage out to the bin ( a whole lot), so he put in in the back of his truck, told me to hop in, and we drove a lap around the building before taking the trash to the bin. lol. The bin might only be 50 friggin yards from the store. or less, I don't know, just an estimate. But y'know, it was funny. Had to have been there. :D I got forced into dancing tonight too. Damn you. hehe. And my damn purple pen was stolen. When these guys work, I either get abused or stuff taken away. And always aggravated. But ya gotta love em. *^_^*
This Sunday we're having a little get together for my great grandmother's birthday. She's 79. Rad. :)
My uncle was bitten by a brown recluse. He was bitten yesterday, but really wasn't planning on going to the doctor. It looked bad today and suggested it, only to get the response, "Nah, I'll be alright." I found some info and it matched the description of a recluse bite. Not good at all. I told him before I left the house today. Once again, "I'll be alright." He actually ended up going to the doctor. My great grandmother probably had to talk him into it. What does the doctor say? Yes, it is a brown recluse bite. pfft. "Learn to listen to Mandy when she's trying to help." -.- Don't be stubborn.
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[02 Aug 2005|12:32am] |
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mmkay. Well, I babysat saturday evening. heee. Those kids are crazy. My aunt's kids. And I ate a damn sandwich at her house and got sick. hm....date was good. dunno what the problem was.
I get to babysit again tomorrow. Just early in the morning. oh dear. I just hope I don't fall asleep. ha. That would not be good. I would probably wake up to the house looking like a hurricane came through. Or 3. All named Megan, Mackenzie, and Luke. :D nah..maybe not.
Other than that, that's about it for the past few days. Well...I have something to say, but I CAN'T because I'm paranoid about the wrong people finding out and I really don't like posting privately. Only Nicole knows....so Sam, if it itches at you to know, message me. lol I don't know. I just...I think I'm going crazy, but hopefully I'm not. It's a situation I have a lot to be pessimistic about, but would greatly enjoy for it to turn out great. And it's driving me mad, since I think too much. Too, too much. gah!
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[29 Jul 2005|02:23am] |
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AH! pfft. Nothing much new today. Except that it's so disappointing whenever you see/talk to an awesome guy (possibly as an interesting catch), and it turns out they have a pregnant girlfriend sitting at home. F@#$! Yeah, that was my luck today. heh.
Might go bowling this Saturday. Me, Cole, my mom, Chuck, Dawn, and whoever else is going to end up going I dunno. Fun fun. I love bowling even though I suck. :D We're going to the new place in Columbia. Cole says it's awesome.
It has been pouring rain for the past few days now. I like the rain, but still have the tendency to complain. :) No, that was not an intentional rhyme.
I have to get CD's tomorrow too. All this stuff that I've downloaded is becoming too much for my poor little laptop, I believe. hehe.
I'm so mad. I haven't found a new job yet, and I wanna hurry up and get one, and pray that there is a leniant dress code. I decided I want snakebites. ;]
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[28 Jul 2005|01:26am] |
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Went to the store today. I always have fun with the guys up there. They're nuts. Never a dull moment.
Okay, so, I shave my arms. I've never liked friggin body hair on me. It doesn't bother me really seeing anyone else with it, just seeing me with it. I've done it for...ever now. heh. Mmkay. One of the guys that was working today gets bored ( I'm thinking he may have ADD, considering it doesn't take more than two seconds for him to want something different to do). Anyway, he has this knife/razor-ish thing, and he's playing with it, y'know, trying to find stuff to cut. Like my shirt. But luckily, it's still in one piece. It isn't mine anyway. So he ends up shaving a patch of hair off his arm. lol, it looks funny and he mumbles something about it looking odd. I mentioned I shaved my arms, so immediately, it's "hey really?" *touch touch* wtf. He thought it felt weird, but soon changed his mind, lamenting that my skin was soft like rose petals. Quite the comparison, buddy. His face just lights up as he's rubbing my fucking forearm and he says, "I could do this all day!" Skin..burning...now. Slow it down, let go, and give me back my fuckin arm. Crazy. hehe.
I took the laptop today too. I was going to copy a couple of his CD's that were really awesome ( Pearl Jam - rearviewmirror and Bob Dylan's Blonde On Blonde) He didn't have Blonde On Blonde with him, so I'm like, okay, that's cool, I'll get it some other time. So he says, no no, I'll go home real quick and get it. Before I could argue, he's out the door. K. Next thing I know, he's bringing in the fuckin house. haha. He brought back every single one of his CD's. A big case he keeps in his vehicle (that's about twenty or so) a huge case from the house (which I know had at least a hundred. at LEAST) and a bag full of around fifty or so. "Here, go through and copy whatever you like." My brain is still throbbing. But it's well worth it. :)
Crazy people. Chuck stopped by tonight and he swears that the other dude there is telling him that I apparently said that he's way cooler than Chuck and I have more fun working with him. They just gotta aggravate me.
I also got to see my little cousin Chris today. He and my uncle and step aunt live in Alabame now, so he was visiting before school starts. He is such a quiet boy. But he's a good kid. And it kind of makes me feel old when he says 'yes ma'am/no ma'am' to me. But that's okay, he's just being polite. :)
K, my eyelids are falling fast. Early bedtime for me tonight. G'night dollies.
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okay, I couldn't think of anything. Just that I'm bored now. *smack* g'night, dollies.
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| woe is me...pfft. whatever. |
[27 Jul 2005|12:49am] |
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I just got back today from visiting my buuuddy again. We watched Seed of Chucky. I know, I know, everyone tells me very negative things about it, and I listened...but just couldn't help myself. :D I can't even begin to tell you about how many brain cells were lost during the time period of me watching this. But I learned my lesson. Never gonna watch it again, and will listen to all of you the first time (Sam. lol).
I bought the newest issue of Rolling Stone w/MCR in it today. yayness. And I just watched D'fused with MCR making the video for 'I'm Not Okay (I Promise)' for the first time. heeeee. k.
Nicole says she won't go to Voodoo with me. hm. That's super sad, but I don't want to go alone, and I really wanna experience my first time seeing MCR live with a friend. *sap* yeah. But I really do. Someone go with me! C'mon! It's Halloween weekend too.
I really do plan on going to this one. I will raise hell if these plans cave in. I have 3 months advance. So ha. I AM going.
I whacked off my hair. I got the whole spikey in the back/long in front thing. Will post photos...once I get the film developed. Hopefully, this weekend. Hopefully. *crosses fingers*
I have to pee real bad. I'll be back once more if I remember anything else awesome to say. hehe XD
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whoops, didn't explain the cat thing. There's a kitten hiding out at the store where my mom works. He's been in the outside storage shed for a couple days. We've been feeding him and coaxing him out. I want to take him to the animal adoption center, since I'm not allowed to have pets here. And no one else really gives a damn. Y'know, just want to make sure he's okay. I feel bad for him. So, I think he's run off, because Dawn almost had him when someone pulled around back and close to the shed. It scared him and he went back up into the shed, but I couldn't find him tonight. hm.
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Goodness. Skipped a few days. I stayed over with Cole for a few days. Awesome. :) Not much to do, so we watched White Noise. It's not really scary (I could go on forever about all my dislikes, actually), but when you can't hear all the quiet parts over the A/C and have to turn up the teevee super loud, and then something goes *BANG*, it scares the piss out of you. I got back on Wednesday, and I don't think the cat at the store is there now. I think he ran off. :/ Hope he's safe.
I have more news from the store....but I won't say...yet. Stupid superstitious me doesn't want to jinx...ANYTHING. hehe. Maybe soon we'll all know. Yeah who cares. :P
I might get to scan some of my new junk I've sketched this weekend. I haven't gotten my scanner from Cole's (don't really want to, I'm not going to be here at mom's for too awful long), so I might be going to mom's friend's house some time. Yayness. Just sketches, but I like how they turned out.
hmm...not much else. I don't think. o.O
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Today, I met the man who saved my and my mother's lives. I went to work with my mom again (of course. fun fun:) ) and she was sitting down messing with her phone, so I waited on a man for her. He asked my mom, "You trainin' a new one back here?" Y'know, being friendly and all. My mom looks up and says, "Hey, Leland. No, she's just here helping me out today. You remember that little thang (as country as we all are, this is how it came out) you carried around the woods around twenty years ago? This is Mandy, my daughter." I remembered my mother telling me a little about a wreck that her and I were in when I was an infant, but didn't know much at all. He introduces himself with a grin from ear to ear. "I was the one who got you and your momma out of that wreck." After a moment of talking (well, me being utterly flabbergasted, and my mother and Leland talking), he left and I asked my mom about the whole thing. I was seven months old when it happened. It was the very first time I had ever been put in a carseat, as well. My mother had lost control of the car and went off into a ditch and into the woods. I'm guessing a tree, that part wasn't explained thoroughly. It broke my mother's back and shoulder and really messed up her knee. Already, if it weren't for the carseat, I don't know if I'd be alive or not. But if it weren't for that man happening to notice way back behind him, the car running off the road, I don't really know what would have happened, considering my mom was hurt so badly and no one else was around. He came back down and got me out and went to get help for my mom. I was so shocked when this man that I had never seen before, reminisces (I guess you could say) with my mother about being there on that day, I couldn't speak. I wanted it to come out, but somehow thank you didn't seem like enough to say. I don't know, this may not sound like much to some people, but, who knows what would have happened if he hadn't come along that day.
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I went to work with my mom again today. I just love going because we always have fun (me, mom, and whoever else is working on that particular night). Dawn is now trying to come up with someone for me to go out with. Haha. They told me about this one guy that comes in all the time and NEVER speaks to anyone. They've tried to get him to at least smile at them (out of politeness), but he just won't. Apparently they think I could do it, and Dawn thinks I'd enjoy it since he seems to be my "type." Crazy crazy. I think I'veseen this guy they described a couple years ago...er, something like that. I dunno. Anyway, the next time he does come in, I have to talk to him (y'know, the storefront, hey how are you, kind of thing). And if it doesn't work I have to put him on the spot and ask him, "What's your name? You look very familiar." lol. I'm going to enjoy this. Just because I want to see if I can get a response out of him. I'm not mocking him, I just think it would be pleasant to see one more person in the world smile. I know. stupid. But it sounds like it may be a serious challenge.
While I was outside smoking tonight, Dawn took some boxes out to the trash. She stood in the middle of the lot behind the building yelling at me to come look at this "thing." Okay. I go look and there's this MONSTER fucking beetle on the ground. I was honestly shocked. I'm not that up on insects, so I didn't know what the hell kind it was. So I ran inside and got a plastic cup and (ventilated) lid and Dawn put it in. It just didn't want in, so it clung to the edge. We took it inside to show my mom. It's funny when she flips out. :D Anyway, we thought it was dying, because some of it's legs were broken and it looked like someone may have stepped on it. It's shell/wings weren't cracked, and it could still halfway walk, so I decided we'd keep it until it died, and take it to someone who knew what kind it was exactly. We finally got the (still ventilated) lid onto the cup, and it panicked. I sat the cup down on the front counter and it toppled over and slowly started to roll away. heh. Some guy that everyone up there knows walked in and asked wtf it was. He opened and just rolled his eyes, reached in and pulled it out. I seriously didn't want to touch it, considering that I had no idea if it could bite/sting and was poisonous or not. Apparently it's not. He informed us on what it was exactly. A Hercules Beetle. For those of you, like me, that do not know what that is:  The one on the left is what we found, a female. Only the males have the large horns. So after all the hype, we started to feel bad, and even though it may or may not have been dying, we let it go. Tha end, bois and ghouls.
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